I immediately did the math, and figured since I was 193 pages into it, I'd have a full draft within a few days, figuring the draft might run about 250-260.
Well, that's not how it works. I made a few discoveries last week about characters, and story arc, and conflict, that necessitated me going back into the early chapters and fixing things up. I could have moved forward, but I didn't think it made a lot of sense, given how the entire structure of the book was on such shaky ground.
So I spent the last few days editing, heavily editing the first 70 pages or so, to fix the relationship between my two "bromancees."
Then, just now, I got back to where I'd left off, and finished Chapter 25.
Do I think it's good yet? No.
I think I'm barely surviving the first draft, which is much different than I felt last week.
And that's the secret: in the process of writing, if you are anything like me, you will feel a wide array of emotions and feelings about what you're doing -- everything from "this is the greatest thing ever written" to "I can barely write an English sentence."
This, my friends, is natural. For an artist, anyway. The manic-depressive thing, where you go from one polarity to the other, seems to be something many of us writers share.
I'm learning to go with it. That means surviving the days when I'm pretty sure I can't write a complete sentence, and enjoying the ones where things feel great, without letting it get the best of me.
All in all, I must say I like this process! And I hope to have a good book within a month or so to share with my agent and editor at Penguin.
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